2021: A Year In Review For Me

Every year for quite a while, I do new year resolutions but I also end a year with a WOP-WUP (web-of-passions wrap-up-plan) Which is kinda like, stuff related to new year resolutions but with end of year deadlines, usually things related to my creative, community and career projects (many of them are so interconnected purposefully to help me with my larger, less talked about projects and plans, like a web)

This year was a life-turning point for me, my cPTSD roared into life and has consumed most of my year of me being in crisis mode and many hospitalisations across that time too. It does mean it was a quiet year for me with lots of self-development but I still achieved a few things!

  • I ended a 10-year hiatus and published my next book: Journey of a Lost Boy.
  • Still got to go camping late in the summer before the crisis hit.
  • After many years searching, I got gifted a greenstone pendant I never take off.
  • I got a puppy! Kiwi is a male Australian Cattle Dog and being trained as a PTSD Service animal.
  • I sold my first artwork in my first art competition I have been in since Primary School.
  • The birds had babies during one of my hospital stays. Now it’s a family of six!
  • Achieved my gender transition goals for the year: I have reached a maintenance dose for all my hormone therapy medications.
  • Been able to hang up my favourite artwork i’ve made around the house.
  • Got a traditional maori orators walking stick to help with my mobility around the house.

Some other sad things that happened this year:

  • Plenty of covid lockdowns still :/
  • cPTSD Crisis began in March – continued past the following new year.
  • 8 hospitalisations this year.
  • New EMDR therapist and psychiatrist (gotta keep looking after yourself).
  • Became nonverbal (unable to talk) in mid November – continued past the following new year.

Definitely not a long list like the year before but still some noteworthy things.


2020: A Year In Review For Me

Every year for quite a while, I do new year resolutions but I also end a year with a WOP-WUP (web-of-passions wrap-up-plan) Which is kinda like, stuff related to new year resolutions but with end of year deadlines, usually things related to my creative, community and career projects (many of them are so interconnected purposefully to help me with my larger, less talked about projects and plans, like a web)

This year with covid lockdowns, I had to be more creative on what I can get done without leaving the house much, hopefully next year I find some friends to help me get back into the outdoors more 🙂 While I don’t usually share new year resolutions, what I did do however is usually a good life-building list of achievements and hardships of the year to share:

  • 700+ Pages researched, interviewed and written for the pup play book project.
  • 300+ Pages built, translated and written in the ancient Chinese atlas project which will be published early in the next year.
  • Photography portfolio designed and ready to be published in the new year.
  • Started working with University of Sunderland (UK) to start the process of donating the pup play research project to have continual academic involvement.
  • First peer-reviewed academic paper submitted for publishing in a journal. Based on demographic information on the pup play community research project. With more coming.
  • Grew tulips successfully for the first time ever.
  • Returned back to Activites I used to do a LOT, like camping, kite flying, mineral collecting, birdkeeping, fern growing, astrophotography, micro-origami, wood carving, digital mural artwork.
  • Got to visit 4 new national parks when lockdowns co-operated.
  • Broke up with sabre and moved out.
  • Got diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis.
  • Lost 24kg due to a few illnesses.
  • Lost the pet frogs I had for 4 years while I was in hospital.
  • Planted 12 new native trees in public parkland spaces.
  • After 20 years, I have finally came out of the transgender closet and begun HRT.
  • Started the process of police getting involved to intervene in the harassment and abuse I have begun receiving from the Mormon church again.
  • Rebooted my projects portfolio website at www.adaptiveexplorer.com
  • Rebooted my blog writing website at www.ashleykahurangi.com
  • Launched my next big community project, the accessibility grading scheme and pitching to state governments in Australia at www.adaptivecamping.com
  • Taken up playing Tibetan singing bowls as my musical instrument hobby again after a 9 year hiatus. (They’re originally from northern India/nepal and not from actual Tibet)
  • Rebooted my big life’s work project and childhood dream in Terrasailing after a 8 year hiatus on it.
  • Grieve through the passing of my Husky, Kiro.
  • Witness the astronomical “great conjunction” event which last happened in the 1600’s
  • Start working on my next qualification field to attempt to become a park ranger and/or upskill more for my future big projects (land/wildlife management).
  • Oh, there was a pandemic on this year too?

I’m not perfect in any means, my “failed/postponed projects” list for this year is still longer than the list above. Not much of what I been up to this year has made it onto social media and there’s still so much about me that’s not known to even some of my friends. But no matter the hurdles, external or internal I still run to this faster drumbeat in life. I don’t like external problems defining me and my path in life and I hope I can keep inspiring people that they can overcome their own challenges too through actions and by example.

Kiro The Husko: End of An Era

It was so much his favourite spot, the grass didn’t have a chance to grow. The hole left in the heart is tearing me apart at the moment but I have already learnt lots about what it all means to me, why we got him, how we loved each other, what we learnt from each other and how we lost you.

With no regrets because I did and gave my best.

Calming “It’s okay boof, don’t worry, everything will be okay” sounds like he’s saying it back to me now. #kirothehusko #husky #huskylife